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LINCOLN CROCKETT: Music

Where Are You Now

(LINCOLN CROCKETT)
February 14, 2014
©2011 Lincoln Crockett

On Valentine's Day 2011 my family lost our newborn son Joseph Phoenix Crockett. We call him Josephoenix. This is the song I wrote getting through it, one of the many gifts he left us in his brief life. I rarely perform it, and the only place you'll find it available is here at UseMusic.org. It features the voices and performances of Zoë Presley, Hamid Shibata BennettMo Phillips, Richey Bellinger, Michael Henchman and my neighbor Erin Nelson, who were among the many who buoyed us after he died. Proceeds go to support the Dougy Center and the simple, powerful help they offer children, teens, adults and families grieving a death.

Don’t want to talk to you in my dreams,

don’t want to see you on some kind of screen

I just wanna hold you like you never went away

But you’re never gonna stay

 

I don’t know what happened but there’s nobody to blame

And I want you to understand that I’m so really glad you came

even when I miss you like I can’t get what I need

I swear to God it feels just like you’re still a part of me

 

                Where are you now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

 

Every human bean in this belligerent and fleshy form

has a calling it can hear out loud the moment it is born

a keening that’ll move your heart and pull you down the line

If only you can plant your feet and get to spend some time

 

I knew that you were coming, it was written in the stars

And I still feel you in my bones like I’m close to where you are

I had my arms open to catch you should you fall

but the train has left the station and I don’t see you at all

 

                Where are you now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

 

I been through enough to know I ain’t afraid to die

there ain’t no hell and heaven ain’t on clouds up in the sky

We been through some healing and some realing at the shock

but I know that it won’t matter if I turn o’er every rock

when no amount of love can change that you are really gone

Still can I have more to go on than convictions and a song

something I can use for real like a hammer or a nail

do you ever get to speak out loud from that side of the veil…

 

                Where are you now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

                where are  you  now

 

Don’t want to talk to you in my dreams,

don’t want to see you on some kind of screen

I just wanna hold you like you never went away

But you’re never gonna stay